I wish I could tell you about my distress. About how many hours I confide in my child and wonder what he's doing while I'm away.
I wish I could tell you that my parents are my shelter, and I must constantly ask them for help. They take me to my classes, support my education and take care of my baby when I'm away (and they're available).
Maybe I should remind you my education is a big goal in my life. You have completed your education so you would know how important it may be, and how hard it is to make those sacrifices along the way.
You may know I am a journalism student. That means I must attend historical events. That doesn't mean I go to every raging event and everything I can get my hands out, although I should. I try my best. I do most of my work from home.
You may know I leave my child at the care of my in-laws most of the time. Before I "leave him on the bed" I change his diaper, feed him and take care of him most of the time while I'm at home. You won't hear him squeal unless I'm in the kitchen attending to other business.
You may also know that I am American. This in no way limits my thinking abilities and does not impair my judgement call when it comes to doing the right thing. Sure I'm human and I may need reminders along the way. I have my husband for that. He is there to correct me. So are my family. But I have to listen to become better.
I am not perfect. I know I cannot do everything, surely not at once. Sometimes my homework will be more important than housework but that doesn't excuse me from not doing housework.
Sometimes I will want to get out. But I evaluate the situation first.
I don't get to go to my parents house very often but when I do, perhaps once in 1 1/2-2 weeks, I don't sit too long (usually 1-3 hours). That's why I save up my days and times during my vacations and stay for a few days.
I wish you would take the time to talk to me. To get to know me. To understand me. To understand our differences and realize we have similarities.You are a smart independent woman.
Sincerely,
N
2 comments:
go Superwoman you can do it and dont let anyone tell you otherwise...I envy all that you are able to do and can do. ;-)
Aww hun don't envy me, just make dua that I can continue to be strong (and get things done). I "envy" you for being a dedicated mother and being a source of encouragement when I need it!
Jazakallah khair.
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